Spiritual Schizophrenia

My  theology is delusional, unbalanced at best, especially when I want God to love me, but I also want Him to demonstrate my anger by taking down the people I don't like or agree with. My neurosis continues when I want God to love me unconditionally, but show His righteous indignation at those who are mean-spirited, ignorant people, in my opinion. 

I want God to be boiling over in rage towards "sinners," myself excluded. Of course, I’m continually reminded the by the Word, the God I worship came not to condemn but to save sinners of which I am one. God help me in my double-mindedness… 

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